Graduation Weekend

oh man. i still can't put into words how my graduation was.

the night before i had the HARDEST time sleeping! everything was bothering me and my room was hot and i was hungry and ughhh. i was annoyed by everything, i just couldn't sleep! lol

I woke up with 5 hours of sleep and started to get ready.. typical morning:
dragging around, eyes half-open and my clothes were crooked. haha

so my dad's driving me, (i hate when i'm in a rush somewhere and it seems like he goes slow on purpose!!) anyway, i'm rushing him, he's mad cause i'm rushing him and i'm mad at my brother for being cranky and he's mad at us for waking him up early lol! there's so much tension in the car, i couldn't wait to get dropped off!!

FINALLY, i arrive, get in line, fix myself ( robe, chords, cap) and laugh nervously with my classmates until its SHOW TIME!!

Since I was senior class president of my school, I got to walk out with a HEAVY gold staff and hand it over to our principal. All the other class presidents met in the middle and did the same thing. It was pretty cool. :D

NEXT THING I KNOW. I'm standing in line for the stage! I'm walking across, shaking hands, giving hugs, and BAM!!!! i'm already in my seat! I'm thinking WHAT THE HECK!! THAT''S IT?!.

A few speeches later, and I'm walking out!! IF YOU CAN'T TELL BY NOW, GRADUATION WENT BY TOOOO FAST FOR ME!! lol! so fast i feel like it didn't even happen lol!

Afterwards, I had this empty feeling in the pit of my stomache. I knew I'd feel that way, I was just hoping it would be so bad. Hugging my parents and brother made me realize how much I missed my older brother. I felt like someone had ripped some life out of me, I wasn't myself for a good hour or so.. I couldn't shake the feeling. I still can't, and I've tried torturing myself by looking at pictures and reading letters but NOTHING. Not one tear. I'm officially numb of all emotion.

So Saturday night I went out with some friends. We had an OK time. Not great. Just Ok. The best part was crackin jokes on the way back.. lol

Sunday morning, I woke up on my friend's bed TOO EARLY. We ate, got lazy and I came home. Went to a pool party and called it a night.

I had a hard time REALLY enjoying anything this weekend cause of that "thing on my chest" I would love to relieve myself from it but no luck. I'm hoping with time it will pass and I will be able to feel things again, even if its a bad feeling.

Today, I finally gathered the strength to write my brother, I told him about graduation and how I wished he was there. It was VERY hard. Mostly because I know how much it would hurt him, knowing he missed out.

.... the moral of the story is, my graduation would have been better, if my brother had been there. i miss him so much.

3-Day Weekend

BLEEH..... goes my brain.

This weekend was supposed to be CHILL. But NOOOO! i just had to have all kinds of things to do. Once again. My weekend went from Friday to Sunday night in the blink of an eye!

Friday. I got to sleep in til noon; a well-deserved lazy morning.
Then noon came, and ON TO THE ERRANDS.
I went to my cousin's house to borrow some shoes; when we started tooking through baby pictures. :D aww


CAPTION: me, erica , and liz on x-mas looking adorable!


CAPTION: haha. remember getting THIS many gifts? lmao this should've been on a commercial or something.


CAPTION: ayy. i was small but i was fast ;D


CAPTION: my dad has this picture blown up in the living room lol i look dorky.


so after taking a trip down memory lane,
i went home like a loser and went to bed early. whomp-whomp

SATURDAY:
ahh. i dreaded waking up early; not for work this time.
for a scholarship interview. *pray for me*

it was allll they wayyyy in Richardson. jeez, the scholarship could pay for half the gas getting there... lol
my dad was a good sport and he took me :)

during the interview; i saw some fellow classmates :D
(good luck girls)

post-interview mode was on as soon as i got in the car.
i fell asleep on the way home and woke up in bed; i didn't recall getting out of the car tho...... strange.

my night ended by going to the movies with the fam. and getting a headache on the way home. GREAT -_- (sarcasm)

SUNDAY:
work. grocery shopping and laundry.
typical sunday.

anyway. i hope SENIOR WEEK makes up for my "over-too-soon" weekend.
<3

Graduation

So these past few days flew by!!
I could've sworn it was still Monday.. jeez.

Senior year couldn't get any busier for me. On top of school work, there's AP exams, final projects, speeches to prepare, scholarships to finish, senior pictures to book, I'm also looking for a new job, and that's just the school part. I have a social life to; well at least I hope it still exists lmao.

and this is only the beginning..

dun, dun, dunnn!!!


Cap & Gowns are to arrive tomorrow, and ..... its about time!
This sunday is Baccalaureate :) and I will be speaking. Nervous? Yes
I have a script tho so I'm good.

Yesterday I went to the Travel and Tourism graduation to support some friends from school. I'm so proud of them; especially the students who received scholarships :) Who doesn't like scholarships?!?! Anyway, it made me realize how close my graduation is. May 29th. Its like I want to stall and stay in my senioritis-state forever and just hold off graduation; but at the same I want to get the heck out of high school! No more idiot freshmen standing in the middle of the hallway, getting in MY way! No more annoucements from Alice (Townview kids should agree). I'm sick of it, sick of the same freakin thing for 4 years. At least in college, I'll have more freedom to switch up my routine. Can't wait....

&& I found this picture, I was on the DISD Teen Board this year. Our group photo :D