So I kept hearing that Katy Perry was a Christian Artist before she became what she is today, so I was curious and did what anyone else would do... I YouTubed it haha! And I found this video and other songs that she recorded. Honestly I found it hard to believe that she sang Christian sing cause of how she puts herself out there. She went from "praise the lord" to "i kissed a girl". LMAO!!!!
So for a day, I decided to randomly take pictures of things. I think it was yesterday, or the day before... or last week. IDK. but I think they look cool xD
random things at work.
my lunch-oh
arriving home, i saw the sun and began to pray. lmao
THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY DAY. HAHA
so yea,
I'm weird and random but I could care less.
<3
I hate how this sounds. I don't like saying it but I'm gonna say it.
I FEEL SO ALONE.
For the past few months, after the rush of graduation and such, now that things are finally settling.. I feel so alone! I'm loosing my motivation and my "want" to continue...
Only 3 people in my life, honestly made me feel like I can do whatever I wanted to do. Be who I wanted, and I would have 100% support from them. They're no longer in my daily life and I'm feeling it... and feeling it BAD.
Both my Grandma & Grandpa both had a way of telling me, they were proud. "Ya se que mi güerita va hacer algo bueno," is what my Grandpa would say. And my Grandma would say something along the lines of, "Baby girl you are beautiful and you can do anything you set your mind to." After one passed, the other did soon after and I can honestly say I have never been the same since, nor have I ever endured so much heartache.
My brother was also someone who made me feel so proud of myself, with just one look and him saying "you're going places man, that's good!" That to me, is worth so much more than a piece of paper saying I graduated. He always tells me in his letters, "Iron sharpens Iron. You're helping me get through this in here, while I'm helping you get through life out there."
Maybe all this is a sign that I need to stop staying up late,
yet maybe all of what I'm feeling is the real reason for my insomnia.
Its nearing 3am, I'm tired as hell but my mind is not easily eased.
I guess the point of this is..
Kind words from warm hearts is what I'm missing.
Perhaps kinds words from the Lord is what I need.
And I must say, for those who know me and my struggle.. this is an epic moment in my life.
My old phone has been there through it all..
when slam it closed after a heated argument..(rarely happens)
or when i toss it in the air for entertainment..
when i throw it at someone just cause..
or when it turns off , for no apparent reason and i punch it..
i can honestly say, its been through hell and back xD
yea, its supposed to be a flip phone, but it kind of swivels now. lmao
and swivels....
and the guts are showing xD
so yea. its broken. and its been that way for a good month or so, lol. don't ask me why it took me this long to buy one, cause i don't really know the answer.. part of me was too cheap to go give metro my money. and the other part didn't HAVE the money to give to metro.
and yes.... i have metro. metro pcs! and i'm proud! cause i'm cheap and i don't travel. so it doesn't bother me. the only thing i can say that bothers me about metro is how expensive the phones are, and how annoying the rebates on them are. they have a nice blackberry priced to around $400. that's like a car payment lmao. what the hell. so, i got a cheap version of a blackberry and it was like 1/5 of that price. and i'm very happy cause i don't need any fancy touch screen phone to consider myself up to date. that's what the internet is for.
on to other news.
i'm planning on visiting my brother next saturday and i CANNOT wait.
he was incarcerated in february of this year and i have yet to see him. so its time. :)
maybe now my mind can settle down and my insomnia can ease up. lol
<3
Well! I had myself quite an adventure yesterday.
At my weekday job (as a receptionist/ assistant) I was sent out to pick up some supplies for my boss. Now, I had no problem doing that because I was provided with directions and gas money. BUT, I was a bit nervous because of where I was going to do the pick-up.
So I'm organizing and cleaning the desk area and my boss asked me to look up an address.
I looked it up, printed it out, and set it on her desk without asking why
then she hands it to me and she tells me I'll be going there for the pick up.
I looked at the address it said ADDISON, TX
My stomach dropped! lmao. I am terrified of the toll way! I HATE IT!!
The furthest I had ever driven was Cedar Hill or Northpark Mall, which ever is farther...
and even then, its simple to get there since its a straight shot. But, I was terrified of getting on the toll way.
I went ahead and packed up, got the number to the place, and prayed to God that I would get there in one piece!! haha
So, I'm on my way there.. and it was crazy and chaotic! I'm okay on the freeway but those freeways are NO JOKE!!!! Cars wouldn't let me in, trucks were right on my tail insisting I go faster than 70mph. I was just hoping that I wouldn't hit anybody since I'm driving without a license. xD
I ended up somewhere in North Dallas running out of gas. lmao. I was so confused and frustrated!!
I did what anyone would do in a desperate situation.....
I called my mom :) lmfao! she helped me out like I knew she would, and I got to where I was supposed to be going. Now I could only imagine how I looked, a little girl, driving a blue pick-up truck, waving a map around, on the cell phone, with supplies flying around in the back.. LMAOOOO
ahh man, it was crazy but I got the stuff, and it was delivered.
It may seem like no big deal to some but it was a big deal to me and I'm proud of myself.
Today, I was confident enough to drive to Arlington!
WHAT'S NEXT??
lol
Today was my first day at my new job! I love it so far, I learned so much and I'm really excited for this new change :D I decided to keep my weekend job also so I'm gonna be juggling two jobs. We'll see how that goes for me lol.
I've recently gotten into graphic novels, one in particular is called Y: The Last Man. Its a series of about 10 or so collectors editions. Even though I've only read into the first one, I'm already hooked lol!
From what I've read; its about this guy, Yorick, who is the ONLY man left alive after a nasty plague that caused all the MALES in the word to suddenly die. Actually, he and his little monkey are the only male mammals left. The plague caused for all living mammals possessing a "Y" chromosome, to randomly die. And when I say randomly I mean, out of nowhere! There's a scene where men are speaking, and they just puke, and pass out mid-sentence! Its crazy! And I know it sounds like a freaky fantasy, you know, he's the last man on earth and there are nothing but women, but its not like that lol. I really like it so far, so hopefully I sparked some interest in you, the reader of this here blog.
I must admit, whenever someone says, "it wont fit!" or "this is hard!" i just bust out with THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID. i'm sure everyone has said something that sounded "wrong" or "dirty" but i can't help but notice that its getting wayy outta hand. like, there are people that OVER-do it. like there are even groups on facebook 'that's what she saiders' and 'i have a dirty mind' groups.
while its funny, it worries me. if my generation thinks like this, imagine the future generation?!
scary thought.
so then i wondered how dirty my mind was....
then i saw this commercial -_-
this answered my question. haha. man, the advertising team did good with this one, they sure got our attention.
i also stumbled upon THIS. lmao. this was funny:
bahaha.
in conclusion. my mind is dirty. and so is yours. xP
I don't know how or what, but some how.... I stayed up for almost 40 hours!!
Let me tell you, I suffer from insomnia, obviously, but I have never been awake for that long! I had some weird experiences lol. hallucinations, paranoia, and even brain malfunctions.
I started my "experience Sunday Morning 9am and stayed up until Monday Night 12am. Crazy huh.
Paranoia sunk in when I felt someone touch my foot while at my aunts house, and I saw snakes in the corner of my eye like twice! HAHA. I was getting really slow too, I was talking slower and I had trouble understanding simple questions. While it was fun to laugh at myself and everything, I know its not healthy and I doubt I'll do it again anytime soon lol.
T'was fun tho.
(sing to the tune of drake "over")
i know way too many people NOT here now that i did know last year,
where the heck are yall?
i swear it feels like the last few nights i've been nowhere and back and
i just cant take it at all
what am i doing?
what am i doing?
oh yea that's right i'm not in cancun, i'm not in cancun
i aint living life right now mayne
and that's what ima do til they come back, til they come back
but its far from that.....
:(
..... well! while some of my friends are in Cancun, livin it up. I'M NOT. i'm here in "not-cancun" being bored to death by diet pill commercials and reality shows. -_- i'm in total FML mode right now lol
I wish i could be in cancun ... dang! Last night i was watching a movie and this cute brazilian guy made me think of all the fun i'm not-having in not-cancun. so i decided to get a little creative and make the best of it ROTFLMFAO!
here's me NOT having the time of my life
here's me NOT having fun on the beach
here are the hot guys i did NOT meet
here's the beach i did NOT run on
the party i did NOT go to.
here's the pose that i OVER did. lmao
the hotel that i did NOT stay in. fml.
the photoshoot i did NOT have!!
with megan fox's body xD
LMFAO!. okay if this doesnt make you laugh,
you trippen!!! hahahaahahaha
did i get too carried away? maybe, but i felt better about missing out so that's all that matters lol
in all seriousness, lets keep those who are vacationing, not just my friends and mom but everyone else, family/friends/whatever. keep them in our prayers for a good time and safe trip home.
that is all <3
well!
today just DID NOT go right. from beginning to end.
i awoke today, like any other day. stumbling around my room looking for my slippers and finally getting them out of the trash. i'm assuming my little brother put them there -_-
breakfast consisted of a hand full of cookie crisp and almost NO milk. its partially my fault that we have no groceries cause i've been so "busy" watching tv and movies all day.
i wake up to like 16 text messages asking "where's your mom, i've been trying to get ahold of her?" or "hey are our yearbooks ready"
so i spent like 30 minutes responding "she's in mexico" and "no. next week"
haha. i love that people come to me with questions, i really do. i just was NOT up for it today.
my day continues with NOTHING on tv. the stupid Wii console was being stupid. my phone broke AGAIN. did i mention most of my friends are in cancun :(
also, i was plannin on going for a run today at the park but NOOOO!
my dad didn't leave me the car keys. so i was stranded at home, no food, no money, NOTHING.
then i jumped on the net and found this link. CLICK HERE it changed my whole mood.
i realized there wayyyy bigger issues on this earth than my dumb complaints.
so i sucked it up and took my little brother down the block and got chased by a giant rat (chihuahua).
haha. he was trippin me out the WHOLE way cracking jokes and making weird noises. those who know him well, know exactly what i'm talking about lmao. and we got to do something i havent done in YEARS.
haha. i just had to post this, cause i thought it was pretty ironic on how the song is about his love being her "drug" well, after watching the video i wondered if the director was on drugs. haha
(the weirdness starts one minute into it)
I feel bad for the druggies that watch this video, they'd get scared lmaooo
Is it just me or does everytime Ke$ha come out with a video, she looks dirty, like she hasn't bathed in days. I wanna hose her down and brush her hair. lmfao.
ohh, and i found this parody with one of my Apps this morning, it made me laugh... hopefully you guys have as sense of humor and enjoy it. lol
(be patient and wait for the vid to load; its worth the wait)
Even I have to admit sometimes, I get lazy but this week O.o i didn't even know it was already thursday!
My best friends were Facebook, My cell phone, Youtube and Netflix :D they're always there for me lmao
now lemme explain why i feel naked HAHA. ...So this morning, my mom wakes me up asking for my camera. (no one, i mean no one is allowed to borrow my camera) our conversation went a little something like this"
Mom: "where's ur camera?" Me: "for what" Mom: "i'm going out of town remember!" Me: "ohh man! that means i'm not getting it back." Mom: "what is that supposed to mean?!" Me: "it means, you're gonna get alittle too crazy and drop it" Mom: "excuse you! i am a responsible adult, i know what i'm doing" Me: "you didn't know what you were doing when you dropped the Silver camera in the toilet!! explain that!" Mom: "girl, that wasn't even your camera, and it was an accident. you've dropped your phone in the toilet too!" Me: "touché" Mom: "what does that mean" Me: "nothing, here's the case, and the charger is in my purse." Mom: "don't forget to pick up Estevan from school, HE HAS EARLY RELEASE! DO YOU HEAR ME????!!!" Me: "have fun. be careful. love you. bye." Mom: "you need to stop staying up late, BLOGGING!"
lmao..... so, she won. like always. and she took my camera, and i feel naked. O_o
so while i was YouTubing HARDCORE this week, i came across a video i had seen like a year ago. i didn't think it was a big deal until now. if anyone's familiar with iCarly they'd understand why its so amazing. the star of the show, iCarly is Miranda Cosgrove, which has like 4 songs already. and honestly after watching this, you will wonder why the co-star Jenette McCurdy isn't the big star.
This is just my opinion, but I'd rather see this girl selling records than Taylor Swift. Jennette McCurdy is working on an album (i think) and i'm EXCITED :)
I was running errands today and I decided to film my hood and all its glory.
Colbie Caillat is a SKANK! jk. i love her music, but! i think the Allure nude photoshoot is.... weird. I'm so used to her being all calm and "bubbly" LMFAO No pun intended. But this buttnakedness is awkward for me lol!
BEHOLD.
Also, I found out, that Bruno Mars is actually Puerto Rican and Filipino! ohh, and Peter Hernandez is his real name.
I found this song, and it has a really good sound. i love his voice <3
Random Great News. After dealing with braces for FOUR WHOLE YEARS. yes 4. I found out, that in two months, they will be removed. :D xD :D
so. here it is, my first blog. i have always wanted to blog. all these social networks aren't enough for me.
well, its so late at night, its morning. i'm trying to decide if i should sleep or just stay up til my alarm goes buzzin'.
oh! its CINCO DE MAYO all my mexicans say "arrriiibaaaa"
i WANT a taco :P
here are pictures from sunday's Cinco de Mayo fesivities at Fair Park. free concert: packed venue full of mexicans.
This is Reik.
i think the lead singer is hott :)
i'm assuming every(girl)one does.
anyway, they sounded GREAT live.
i'm not crazy about big crowds but i was feelin the mexican love.
everyone was chill, then again it was sponsored by bud light.
give a lil bud light to a few mexicans and you have yourself a PARTY.
good thing they stopped selling early, or we would've been there for days...
ahh, its good to be mexican..
IN OTHER NEWS.
The Phoenix Suns (basketball for you GIRLS) are taking a stand for the whole Arizona Immigration Law. For tonight's game against San Antonio Spurs, they're wearing "Los Suns" Jersey. Pretty cool.
I see Nash... is it just me, or does anyone miss the old mavs.
Back in the 6th grade when I could name all the players...
so i sucked it up and took my little brother down the block and got chased by a giant rat (chihuahua). 
